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I have a confession to make

 

Do you have a minute?

Can I be honest?

Grab a cup of coffee and pull up a chair.  I have a confession to make…

I’ve been lukewarm recently.

Revelation 3:15-16 (New International Version)

I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth.

I haven’t been studying my Bible like I know I should.  Don’t get me wrong, I’ve been reading my Bible.  But I haven’t been really studying it.  I haven’t been digging in, trying to figure out how it applies to my life and letting it change me.

I haven’t been praying like I know I should.  Again, I’ve been praying, but lately I have felt like my prayers were hitting the ceiling. So, I wasn’t praying with conviction… like I expected answers or change… and my prayers have been a little one-sided, a lot of talking, little listening… KWIM?

I haven’t been intentional about my faith like I know I should.  I wasn’t doing anything grossly wrong, per se.  I’ve been attending my church. We even watch LifeChurch.tv during the week,  I just wasn’t striving to maintain my relationship with Christ.

Recently, one of my Pastor’s shared this passage in her sermon…

Revelation 2: 4-5 (New International Version)

Yet I hold this against you: You have forsaken your first love. Remember the height from which you have fallen! Repent and do the things you did at first.  If you do not repent, I will come to you and remove your lampstand from its place.

It struck a chord.

Last night we watched part 3 of At The Movies, a sermon series by Pastor Craig Groeschel of LifeChurch.tv.  In his sermon, Craig discussed the When-Then Mentality.

Again, it struck a chord.

I had rested on my spiritual laurels (i.e. relied on my past achievements instead of working to maintain or advance my walk).  When I first became a Christian, I loved to study my Bible, pray, and worship.  But, recently, it had become routine and I was just going through the motions.

But, today it changed.  I realize that I am my best me when I am striving to maintain a vibrant relationship with Christ.  I am not happy being lukewarm.  I’m not happy with resting on my laurels.  I’m not pleased with the person I have been… the wife, the mother, the homemaker, or the friend I’ve been.

So, I repented.  I told Jesus that I am sorry that I treated him like a distant cousin rather than my Lord, my leader, and my best friend, and I asked him to forgive me.  Then, I decided…

If I want something I haven’t had then I will have to do something I haven’t been doing.

I will study my Bible.  I am joining the 90-Day Challenge hosted by MomsToolBox.com.  I’ve been reading the Chronological Bible plan over at YouVersion, so I am going to add the Bible in 90 Days plan to my reading plans, and go from there.

I will start using SOAP again.  SOAP is a method of Bible Study.  We actually learned SOAP several years ago from a friend, but somewhere along the way, i stopped using it.

S is for Scripture—take time to read the Bible and allow God to speak to you.  When you are done, write down one verse, or passage, that particularly spoke to you..

O is for Observation—what is God saying to you in this scripture?  After asking the Holy Spirit to speak to you, write down your observations, and maybe even summarize what you read.

A is for Application—ask yourself how the scripture applies to your life right now.  Write it down.

P is for Prayer—prayer is a two way conversation, so be sure to listen to what God has to say! Write it down.

I will pray with an earnest heart.

I will be intentional about my faith.

And you know what?  Within the same hour, I saw God answer a prayer that has been on my heart, and on my lips, for months.

Coincidence?  I don’t think so.

I’m not saying I won’t mess up.  I’m not saying I won’t skip a day of reading, or be cranky, or offer up an only half-hearted prayer occasionally.  I’m not saying I am gong to be perfect or suddenly become the best wife, mother, and homemaker on the block.  I’m not saying there won’t be days where I barely have time to breathe, let alone read, between cleaning messes, running errands, and raising kids.

I am saying I am going to STRIVE.

In the words of Joel Hemphill… He’s still working on me, to make me what I truly ought to be….

I’m so glad that He’s still working on me!

How about you?

Be blessed,

Virginia

Lady V dZine

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About Virginia

Hi there! My name is Virginia, and I am the author/owner of That Bald Chick. I am a Christian, wife, mother of three, full time homemaker, homeschooler, and ministry volunteer in addition to being a blogger. In my free time *cough* I enjoy reading, writing, taking walks with my family, and listening to music.

Comments

  1. I am so glad you have decided to join us in our reading of the Bible in 90 days.. it is truly an amazing experience!!

  2. Thanks so much, Amy, and thanks for dropping by!