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I have a confession to make

 

Do you have a minute?

Can I be honest?

Grab a cup of coffee and pull up a chair.  I have a confession to make…

I’ve been lukewarm recently.

Revelation 3:15-16 (New International Version)

I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth.

I haven’t been studying my Bible like I know I should.  Don’t get me wrong, I’ve been reading my Bible.  But I haven’t been really studying it.  I haven’t been digging in, trying to figure out how it applies to my life and letting it change me.

I haven’t been praying like I know I should.  Again, I’ve been praying, but lately I have felt like my prayers were hitting the ceiling. So, I wasn’t praying with conviction… like I expected answers or change… and my prayers have been a little one-sided, a lot of talking, little listening… KWIM?

I haven’t been intentional about my faith like I know I should.  I wasn’t doing anything grossly wrong, per se.  I’ve been attending my church. We even watch LifeChurch.tv during the week,  I just wasn’t striving to maintain my relationship with Christ.

Recently, one of my Pastor’s shared this passage in her sermon…

Revelation 2: 4-5 (New International Version)

Yet I hold this against you: You have forsaken your first love. Remember the height from which you have fallen! Repent and do the things you did at first.  If you do not repent, I will come to you and remove your lampstand from its place.

It struck a chord.

Last night we watched part 3 of At The Movies, a sermon series by Pastor Craig Groeschel of LifeChurch.tv.  In his sermon, Craig discussed the When-Then Mentality.

Again, it struck a chord.

I had rested on my spiritual laurels (i.e. relied on my past achievements instead of working to maintain or advance my walk).  When I first became a Christian, I loved to study my Bible, pray, and worship.  But, recently, it had become routine and I was just going through the motions.

But, today it changed.  I realize that I am my best me when I am striving to maintain a vibrant relationship with Christ.  I am not happy being lukewarm.  I’m not happy with resting on my laurels.  I’m not pleased with the person I have been… the wife, the mother, the homemaker, or the friend I’ve been.

So, I repented.  I told Jesus that I am sorry that I treated him like a distant cousin rather than my Lord, my leader, and my best friend, and I asked him to forgive me.  Then, I decided…

If I want something I haven’t had then I will have to do something I haven’t been doing.

I will study my Bible.  I am joining the 90-Day Challenge hosted by MomsToolBox.com.  I’ve been reading the Chronological Bible plan over at YouVersion, so I am going to add the Bible in 90 Days plan to my reading plans, and go from there.

I will start using SOAP again.  SOAP is a method of Bible Study.  We actually learned SOAP several years ago from a friend, but somewhere along the way, i stopped using it.

S is for Scripture—take time to read the Bible and allow God to speak to you.  When you are done, write down one verse, or passage, that particularly spoke to you..

O is for Observation—what is God saying to you in this scripture?  After asking the Holy Spirit to speak to you, write down your observations, and maybe even summarize what you read.

A is for Application—ask yourself how the scripture applies to your life right now.  Write it down.

P is for Prayer—prayer is a two way conversation, so be sure to listen to what God has to say! Write it down.

I will pray with an earnest heart.

I will be intentional about my faith.

And you know what?  Within the same hour, I saw God answer a prayer that has been on my heart, and on my lips, for months.

Coincidence?  I don’t think so.

I’m not saying I won’t mess up.  I’m not saying I won’t skip a day of reading, or be cranky, or offer up an only half-hearted prayer occasionally.  I’m not saying I am gong to be perfect or suddenly become the best wife, mother, and homemaker on the block.  I’m not saying there won’t be days where I barely have time to breathe, let alone read, between cleaning messes, running errands, and raising kids.

I am saying I am going to STRIVE.

In the words of Joel Hemphill… He’s still working on me, to make me what I truly ought to be….

I’m so glad that He’s still working on me!

How about you?

Be blessed,

Virginia

Lady V dZine

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About Virginia

Hi there! My name is Virginia, and I am the author/owner of That Bald Chick. I am a Christian, wife, mother of three, full time homemaker, homeschooler, and ministry volunteer in addition to being a blogger. In my free time *cough* I enjoy reading, writing, taking walks with my family, and listening to music.